[spoilers] Lucas. Just Lucas.

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(31-10-2010 04:14 PM)theeyeshaveit Wrote:  I am not sure Lucas had a home, friends and family to fight for when he went to Russia. He was not expecting to resume life with Elizaveta and he only seemed to have Harry to fight for to me. Having family and a life would make him less willing to take the Russian risk I think, he would have more to lose, so I am arguing against myself here. i think he would have taken that risk though.

I think this is where you may not be understanding me. It's not about the physical idea of home and family, and it's not about Elizabeta. The "home" I'm talking about is MI5 and Harry, that's his "home" as Lucas himself stated. His team is his home, where people understand and trust him. He took that risk because a member of his family was in danger, so he went to Russia to help save Harry. He could take that risk because he knew that he had something to hold onto and fight for. At worst he will be sent away to a Russian jail cell again, but it would be worth it to fight for his family.

But with this secret that he's hiding, what's at risk is that very "home" that Lucas would do anything to keep safe. The worst case scenario here wouldn't just be sent to a jail cell and be tested for his loyalty, it would be that he will never have that home again, there would be no escape and nothing to fight for this time, that he will be swallowed up by the darkness and the abyss. There would be nothing to fight for because by then he will have lost it all. That's the worst case scenario more frightening than being tortured because he remained loyal to his country.

(31-10-2010 04:14 PM)theeyeshaveit Wrote:  I thought the point of Maya's introduction was because Lucas had no home, existence or life currently either that Vaughn could threaten. I feel he has chosen the least likely path to forming a life with her, and I don't believe he would have lost if he had faced Harry, he had far more to lose with the path he is on. I think he would have realised that after he saw what Vaughn was about and not gone down his current path.

Well, as I have explained before, you can see all his errors in logic objectively but Lucas can't. In his head, all he sees is that he can loose everything he ever fought for, and when people are in that kind of desperation to protect what they have, all logic goes out the window. While you may not believe that he would not have lost if he faced Harry, but you can't know that for sure and neither does Lucas know for sure, and for even a shred of chance that Harry can turn away from him, Lucas can't risk that so he keeps digging himself into this hole so far down that he can't get out of. There is no logic, what Lucas carries inside is a bunch of messed up emotions, feelings, fear, and desperation.

Yes I agree with you that Lucas should have realized that the path he is taking will only lead to nothing good, but like I said before, a path of fear and desperation is not easy to get off from, you realized that your path is stupid and wrong, but you keep on going and going because it's what you know, it's becoming instinct. I know that feeling very well, traveling down a dangerous path that I know is wrong and stupid, but I do it anyways because I just can't stop it.

Believe me there have been enough moments where I want to smack Lucas for doing stupid things and making horrible decisions, but when I think from Lucas's point of view of what he stands to loose, I can see and understand why.

(31-10-2010 04:14 PM)theeyeshaveit Wrote:  I agree the story is not over and whether it will ultimately convince me I don't know, but at this point it doesn't. We shall see, and hope in unison for the best for Lucas.

I only question why Lucas didn't shoot Vaughn when he had the chance?

And other than that, I understand Lucas's actions and reasons, I can relate to them.