Series 9 Episode 8 discussion

[BravoNine]

Well honestly, I've said all I can say about my feelings on this series, everything I wanted from this series, even a little tiny ounce of it that I wished for, I didn't get.

Instead, I got Lucas gone crazy and jumping off buildings. People can try to rationalize it to me all they want, heck, I can even try to rationalize to myself all I want, but it'll never take away that feeling of major disappointment nor will it take away the void left in my heart.

Lucas North had so much potential as a character, so much promise, so many interesting back-stories they could have fleshed out, so many plausible storylines they could have taken to shown he was broken and damaged, yet they chose to run with a storyline that destroyed his best quality of loyalty to his team and then his dignity.

And honestly, it's ruined my enjoyment of the last 2 series, because now every time I see Lucas, all I will think about is how it's just all lies and pretend, that he didn't care, that it was all for Maya.

I'm sorry but there are things that I can never fanwank myself into believing. Unfortunately, this storyline was filled with a boatload of them.

Was I totally hooked and gripped by the episodes? Yes I was, there was never any doubt about it. But even my own enjoyment and excitement level can't cover the disappointment I experienced.

I've saw a lot of my favorite characters exit over the years on so many different shows, some brilliant, some not the best one ever, and some was rather silly but still understandable, but THIS, this was the worst and most insulting storyline I have ever endured.

Spooks owes me health hazard pay! I've been so worried sick about Lucas's storyline and so upset by it that I've gotten sick TWICE now! When I connect to a character, he or she is like family to me, I put my heart and soul on the line with this character, and what the writers did with Lucas was tear apart everything I ever loved about him, left my heart in broken pieces, and stomped all over it for fun. For that, I do not appreciate it at all.

I guess the only hollow consolation I can convince myself to believe is that the real Lucas North came back in those last moments on that roof with Harry and that he sacrificed himself to end the monster that is John and protect his team from harm.

After watching what his end came to be, I wished that he had died in that Russian jail, or died when he went to Moscow to clear Harry's name, or died from that bullet he received escaping the kill squad, or died when Sarah was going to execute him, or died in that bomb blast that killed Ros, at least then I won't have to watch him turn into this monster that I don't even recognize.

I guess Lucas is the first Spook to fight so hard to stay loyal, fight so hard to make things right, and end up dying in disgrace.