Series 10 - Episode 6 Discussion

[KnowItAll]

So I'm a bit late on the commenting - but I was dealing with my bruised soul. I don't think I've experienced so much post-character sadness since Potter days. I feel like the end of Spooks is similar to the end of Potter in so many way, not least in how badly it's divided opinion. And like with the end of Potter, despite it's flaws and the fact there are a thousand things I wish I could change... I loved it.

I would count myself as a crazy Harry/Ruth fan, but I always loved them in their small yet epic, doomed, repressed, wonderful way. Of course I day dreamed about them living in a cottage arguing over le Carré (whom Harry not-so-secretly loves and Ruth loathes) but I never thought the show would give me that. But because I'm a tragic soul, I loved them all the more for their missed chances and I don't think they ever needed to say I love you ('those three words, are said too much, they're not enough' comes to mind).

I thought the ending was utterly tragic. I've been in pieces since. I always identified with Ruth (to an absurd degree considering I'm 18 and nowhere near her brilliance), so it felt like an almost personal blow... (*reminds self it's fiction*) But it felt perfect too. The acting was superb, beyond brilliant. The dialogue was wonderfully written too; the green door was SO Ruth and her admitting to Harry she imagined where his office would be was worth a thousand 'I love yous', to me at least. Peter Firth was just incredible too. There aren't enough positive adjectives for him and Nicola Walker. Although it all broke my heart, it didn't disappoint me in the slightest.

I said this on tumblr but I'll repeat it here; what hurt more than Ruth dying without a happy ending was her dying still believing she didn’t deserve one.

“Harry, we were never meant to have those things.”

Oh beautiful, tragic wonderful Ruth. I just wanted you to realise how worthy of love and happiness you were all along. Your kindness, your selflessness, your intellect, your absolute integrity… you deserved that house by the sea with Sir Harry more than your heartbreaking insecurity would ever allow you to imagine.

But that doesn't mean I'm 'angry at the writers' that she didn't get it. I'm angry at life and the fact that mostly it is pointless and random and utterly unfair... but amongst all that Ruth and Harry found each other if only for the briefest of moments. And that's what I'll take away from Spooks...

That and ten years of awesome one-liners, terrifying plots, terrifyingly bad accents, the fact it made me want to learn Russian (which I'm now predicted an A* in for A Level), bonding with my Dad over it, heartbreak and the fact I actually feel safe on the tube when I think of Harry Pearce sat in his office. So big thanks to Kudos. And time for a re-watch, I think...

#sorryfortheramblingincoherence